Positivity

Yesterday's challenge was to look at ourselves in a mirror and say, out loud, ten positive things.  I really struggled with this, and the thought of telling myself positive things actually caused me anxiety, and made me feel sick to my stomach.  I ended up saying my 10 things hurriedly in the dark.  I have issues.

It's easy to look at myself,
And say, you look chubby.
Look at those disgusting rolls,
You're chunky, fat and tubby.
Your hair looks awfully stupid,
And also did I mention?
You've got a yukky double chin,
And a gross pizza complexion.
Hey, new wrinkles and grey hairs,
Giant pores and saggy bum
And just in case it slipped your mind,
You're also awfully dumb.

I would not let somebody else,
Insult me in such a way.
So why when I say it to myself
Do I think it's okay?

Why can't I look into the mirror,
And say: You look pretty!
You're looking awfully slim today!
You're funny, and you're witty!
Your legs are strong and shapely,
Bright and sparkly are your eyes, 
Your smile is genuine, and
You make the most delicious pies.
Your hair is looking gorgeous!
You also know you're smart,
And inside your most perfect chest,
Is a warm and loving heart.

Fitness Challenge Fail

 I am in a fitness challenge with a group of women, where we are given a challenge each day.  Some days it is exercise (for example, yesterday was 200 stairs) and some days it is nutritional, such as no added sugar or eat 3 colours of fruits and vegetables.  Today's challenge is no caffeine.  You may have guessed by the title how well I did with this one.

No coffee you say?
But this mug I hold,
In hands that are neither
Dead nor cold.

My baby's not sleeping
Willpower I lack,
I'll admit I'm an addict
And coffee's my crack.

You can take away my sugar,
You can make me do planks,
Eat lots of veggies,
But my coffee?  No thanks.

I choked down the protein,
But there's no way around it,
If you were looking for my limit,
Looks like you have found it.

Extra bold brew,
Lightly sweetened, with cream,
Means today I'm a failure,
I have let down my team.

My streak has ended,
But I won't feel sorrow.
I am only human,
And there's always tomorrow.